Someone tell me what to do.
I have an appointment with a psychic this morning. I talk to this woman every two years or so. Where else to turn when I‘ve got no religion to guide me and so very little faith in most people. I trust myself but sometimes I want a little directional nudge or even just a reframe of what already is in my life. Once she said something to me that was so simple, but it just landed right and massively shifted my attitude for the better for about a year.
I’m always a bit scared before the appointment. Not sure I’m gonna want to hear what she says. Would she tell me if some really bad shit was headed my way? I always want to be very quiet and not lead her… see what she comes up with, kind of like a test, as I don’t believe in any of it!! But here I am doing it anyway! She has been remarkably accurate multiple times.
My list of topics looks something like this:
What am I doing, supposed to be doing?
Are Joy and the baby ok?
What’s going to go down with my mom?
Is this woman I’m caregiving for gonna die sometime soon or should I phase out of that?
How can I not turn out like the woman I caregive for . Be less judgemental, self righteous?
Travel?
Will I ever have another lover? do I care?